I can neverexplain why i treasure you so much. Even though i've been hurt, and i feel like i have every reason to be justified when im angry with you, i cant move on from you. I keep thinking of you and i and everything we stood for before.And regret and sadness just sweeps through me. Is it really too much to ask to just be like old times, when you and were both happy. How can i be sure that you mean what you say when it is so hard for you to do anything when you're with me in person. I know and i want to believe that you really did try, but its so hard. But i still appreciate it, and i guess i just want both of us to find peace and happiness while we're still in each others lives. I want to surrender to what God has in store for us, and im praying really hard. Im trying my besto look past your weaknesses and i just feel so cheated sometimes when i dont see any physical change. The conversations we have, i thought they'd change things, but it really didn't seem to, which is why i got so angry. Now youprobably feel like you dont want to put in effort anymore. You may think im just an unappreciative jerk . I guess you're right. I did screw up. Im sorry. You mean more to me then the arguement, and i wonder what things will be in the future. We've done a pretty crappy job in a friendship. And i really want God to work in our lives to make this better cause i know he can. I hope you will not give up hope and trust in his abilities. I hope the bitterness and all the memories of the bad things in the past in both our lives will burn. So we can have a fresh start, and look forward to being happy an finding peace in the future. I hope you can let go, and still have a reason to want to be best friends with me. I still love you very much.
-Ken

The beautiful day...
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