You know God has a funny way of giving you something, and then taking it back. This time round that something didnt go away, it just went further away from me. Moreso it was something that i had grown to be attached to even in a short time.


It's funny, cause i knew this is always what i wanted for her. And yet at the expense of knowing that im very dispensable, can be quite heartbreaking. It took seconds for her to sway, and then it felt like i didnt even exist no more.



So here i am, just realizing that i had been looking out of my balcony windows into the darkness for the last 4 hours. So heavy hearted in disbelief. I never knew i would have been pushed away like that. And i wasn't ready.



But then what can i do about it? I would like to think that it isn't my fault but so many times i've been proven wrong that i'm just not sure anymore. I'm that bad huh? I guess if someone can benefit out of this, it's worth it. Well what i hoped for to happen happened right?


At what expense?Yes i do feel betrayed but at least i know that from now on that they'll never not feel a sense of belonging anymore. I just cant say the same for myself.

The beautiful day...
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