So, Today's service was great. A little mishaps here and there, but besides that everything was good. Learnt alot from today's message. It was nice to see dennis back. Although he'll be leaving for thailand in a weeks time for 3 years, im sure he'll always be remembered for all the good lessons hes taught us, together with those great and enjoyable memories.



After that was Lunch Fellowship. Always nice to have lunch with good company having a great time. Oh and while pastor was ministering at another Church, he met one of my teachers, Mrs Jesse eng. Honestly, i have no idea who that is but she claims to know me. And he was telling me that now he has a spy to keep an eye on me . Got to be on my guard these days haha.



We went to the room upstairs to practise for the evangelistic service next weeek.We're singing Who Am i by the Casting Crowns. Its a really nice song. Very meaningful. Then it was just card games. Wasn't for long though, the timeout programme finished pretty earlly. So everyone just started cleaning up.


I know we're not supposed to hate and all, but why do people always have to say things behind the back? You got a question or a comment about me, say it to my face man. And then you have a reply like "Used to it". Like you've been through hell and endured everything in life. Like im getting in your face everyday, using you. Whats there to get used to? What did i ever do to you? Sometimes i wonder if there would ever come a time where someone could cut this nonsense. Im not even angry.Im prolly more hurt then i am upset.


And no matter what, i'll not be filled with hatred. That may really be the difference between you and me.

The beautiful day...
6:17 AM

So one thing i've learnt, or should i say, im learning , about life is that whenever you try and predict whats going to happen, God steps in and puts you in your place. One thing you can never be sure of , is being sure of whats going to happen next. I guess life has been hectic, late and long days draining energy out of me. I've been trying to get myself to study, but the distractions really suck. and i've wasted so much time, hopefully i'll be able to get back on track and do well. I really need to learn commitment and discipline to do my work and focus on the task at hand.


On to something else, well i've always known that nothing except God can last forever. However sometimes it seems so painful to see things fall apart. It really is that important to be mindful of the bigger picture and know our reasons/purposes. Trying to catch up with some people who i've lost contact with in the past few weeks. For some reason, things just dont seeem the same. Reason? Well i dont know why. I guess whats most important is knowing what is of utmost priority now and always. Knowing why we were even created, the purpose of our very existence.


I guess from here i'll get back to resting for a bit and then returning to studying. Trying not to really let things get into my head. Paranoia, leave my soul for Good!FOCUS.



Well finally, theres you. The ideal name for you is a "sucker for any Hot guy". Whats the use of only being nice when you need something?



Okay, After venting, i feeel much better. Well not exactly, but i shall tell myself that.Till next time, keep giving off heat.

The beautiful day...
6:17 AM

So the other day, at Anniversary i was just listening to Wei chiang and Uncle Rodney talk about their knowledge and inquiry work which concerns a Christian concept of Sin. Something that i've always struggled with is that the reason for Fearing God. What is Fear? What type of Fear?Why Fear God?


So as i was thinking, i realize that Fearing God is important. God is no ordinary peanut brain human, he is an almighty God, Sovereign and Holy. He is capable of anything, and he is powerful.Yet we have received God's grace, as undeserving as we are. We love, cause God has loved us 1st. Fear- In reverence and In Awe. I may be exaggerating when i say that sometimes we sin maybe because there is very little fear of God. This is something i struggle with. Not trying to sound like a tough guy, but there are not many things in life that i have feared. I cant even think of any right now. And i probably wont change overnight. Effort And Faith. What i say may not be true, it may be too vague, and please feeel free to correct.


So yeah, As life goes on and things happen. Sometimes we lose ourselves upon change. The beauty of God's grace is that we can always go back to a Loving father. I shall try my darnest to not take this for Granted. Till next time, Keep giving off heat.

The beautiful day...
6:04 AM