Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple. The Irony of life is knowing that death comes at the end of the tunnel. Personally , for me , knowing that death comes far earlier then anyone else is not that simple to accept. The days are numbered. Life's not been easy having so many family members ill. Stressing is what life has been. The depression of a hating kin is far more unbearable then anything. I always blamed life for being unfair. Then i realize if i wanted fair,i chose the wrong species of life. Everyones made different. I might not be good at many things , but i got the longest "burden" fuse as far as i know. Struggling with the daily work, sometimes i feel like i do so much more then what would be expected from a normal 15 year old. If theres one thing i've realized, is that this world goes only as far as ur skin , appearance and looks. Probably a pinch of atitude but nothing else really matters. Not the good you've done or the character of your heart. Thats how materealistic and skin-conscious people have become. Its not like i expected things to turn out differently. With burdens knocking at the door, the things that keep me going are as simple as the people who stop to say "hi , hello, or RAHH". Wonder what i would do without them. Theres really no point sulking. Life might be miserable but making the best out of every situation is what life's about.To keep going with a smile knowing that im dying more everyday is my goal. I feel it, im getting weaker. But hey , at the end of the day life does not suck. Its a beautiful day , a beautiful sunrise , a beautiful sunset. Theres more to life then a girl , but theres nothing more to life then Love.To love everyone with the deepest of affection.Beautiful.Treasuring every minute of every moment has never seemed more important.Love , the only thing that matters. Cheers. Keep smiling. (:

"And the shadow of the day , will embrace the world in grey."
-Ken (:

The beautiful day...
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