Been a real interesting day for me. Diagnostic reports are out. Everything's good. Why am i blogging at 2.40 am in the morning? I feel a need to pen down my thoughts. Currently im not mad , angry , or pissed. Im disappointed. Disappointed at the people i regard as the nicest people i know. I recall something about us being a youth group. Then again , that just doesnt go as far as its suppose to right?? I've always felt that if u need to say something to me , about me , or some situation where u conveniently "buay tahan" me , you should say it to my face. Not behind my back. I seriusly thought i was changing , maturing , but obviusly they dont think so. And even then they didnt tell me , they chose to speak behind my back. They still think i havent changed , im still P**** , and that my atitude sucks. Okay i can live with that , i have many flaws, that i dont deny. When i asked for an example the only answer i received was an "i dunno" or a convenient " i forgot". The reasoning for their actions was a simple " We Bs you for your own good". Right. Im not hurt at the things you guys said , just at why you never told me. Did it ever occur to you that i was trying? and that by telling me you would be helping me? Now i know people's true opinion. They " buay tahan" me. Next time just tell me. Even now i wont say i blame them. I guess what i thought was change , wasnt what they thought as change , and that there is alot more for me to improve on and to change more and mature in Christ. I need to get back to work , get back to changing. I am sorry if i have been proud , arrogant or intolerable. My sincerest Apologies. From now onwards i wil do my very best in Christ to mature and change my bad habits. I bear no grudges. Despite the abundance of backstabbing , i realize it was my fault. Sorry , and thanks guys.

The beautiful day...
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